Post by Ashlee Muller on Dec 2, 2011 19:33:15 GMT -5
Ashlee Brenda Muller
I HANDLED MY CHARM WITH TIME AND SLIGHT OF HAND.
‘Paranoid;; “Is it so hard to believe that I’m paranoid about just about everything. I wake up screaming half the nights thinking that I’m being ripped to shreds. I imagine hunters jumping out of shadows and being chased by people with torches. What I wouldn’t give to go back to the time before guns. Because of what I am I feel I can’t get close to anyone for fear of judgement and of eventually hurting or infecting them. Seeing as I’m a werewolf I already have to worry about transmitting that virus with a bite never mind this zombie virus I have now as well. Some days I ponder ripping my teeth out so I can’t make anyone go through the same things I’m going through. But then I just decide it’s better if I go back to living how I used to, away from the world.”
‘Guilty;; “Despite this whole zombie werewolf thing I do like to consider myself sweet. I’ve been called that a lot in the past. I care about other people and the guilt I feel if anyone comes to harm and I could have done something to stop it is enormous. I guess that was why I couldn’t stay with Reed and watch him kill all those people anymore. After what happened with his brother he had changed into something I no longer recognized. That woman I killed while with him… The look of terror and shock in her eyes still haunts me on a daily basis. That had been my first kill. Other than dinner of course and though that still doesn’t sit right with me at least they had a reason to die. This woman had just been trying to protect her home.”
`Secretive;; “It’s understandable, before being bitten I was very open with everything and if I had something on my mind you would hear about it. Now it’s hard to find my voice, I have trouble talking to people and everything just feels like I’m trying to fight a current. I’m terrified of being judged for past sins, for what I’ve become, for that I may become. I have flashes of what I’ve done when I black out but I try to block them out, blame them on something else. But it’s hard to ignore them and because of that I don’t easily talk to new people and I go out of my way to avoid anything inhabited by the humans. I’m even more terrified of my own kind and what they would do if they knew what I had become.”
`Loner;; “Ever since leaving Reed I haven’t been able to be around others. I was never comfortable with humans to begin with but other werewolves too now. Our birth pack was huge, there’s no doubt in my mind that I will eventually run into someone born there, hence why I’m especially jumpy around blondes. So I spent most of my time with the wolves, it wasn’t until the apocalypse that I started venturing into towns again to try and find my friend. But even as I began meeting more and more people I haven’t liked being around them long and often opted to shit and sleep outside instead of hanging out with people at a hotel.”
`Untrusting;; “You could shoot me, that is always the first thing that goes through my mind when I meet people for the first time. There is no trust left after the first person I told I had been bitten and what I had done tried to kill me. She had turned out to be a hunter and it was kill or be killed there. She had been my second kill in my whole life and I don’t intend to make a third so I have refrained from telling anyone else. But even before the whole zombie issue the werewolf issue was there. I wasn’t able to get close to humans because they freaked out over anything they couldn’t label and stick in a pretty book. “
`Jumpy;; “Almost the same as paranoid except it goes beyond paranoia now. Since the first person I told now I have it in my mind that everyone knows my dirty little secret and I jump at loud noises, sudden changes in lighting, people cracking their knuckles ect. Yeah… I’ve gotten pretty bad. If someone is walking behind me when I’m walking generally I’m break out into a sprint and shift the second I can just to be able to run faster. Every little noise leave my heart racing, compared to what it is now, and my breath coming in heavy puffs. You should see me waking up if a bunny steps on a twig nearby…”
`Kind;; “Despite everything I do still consider myself kind. I like to help people, to listen to their problems and so whatever is in my power to try and solve them. I enjoy listening to other people’s problems which is odd since I’m terrified of sharing my own. Though I rarely ever make friends it seems that upon just meeting people they start talking to me. That’s how it used to be at least. I’m a little bit too wrapped up in my own shell to even try and talk to strangers anymore. You never know who’s a hunter after all. I used to be a healer in another like you know… I used to want to help people for the rest of my life but look where I ended up.”
`Wise;; “I’ve been around for a lot longer then you. When I finally left my birth pack we traveled for a long time before we entered out first city and there were still horse drawn carriages even then. I was wise beyond my age even back then when I first left but now I feel like I know everything if I grasp at enough straws. History is kind of my thing, yeah I lived through it but if you can tell me a good history story I’ll love you forever.”
`Helpful;; “Okay when I am around people I feel the need to help. That lady in the park that got attacked and almost bitten, I felt compelled to help her. Hence why I am now the one with the bite mark on my ribs and the zombie is now headless. I’ll do what I can to help just about anyone as long as they aren't going to turn around and put a bullet between my eyes. My helpful ways are limited to me coming first since pretty much sacrificing herself for some woman that reminded meof the first lady I had killed. Of course the woman had turned around, flipped out that I'd been bitten and ran. Now I defiantly weigh my options more.
`Vicious;; “Yes I can be, I do have random fits of rage, especially as my heart slows more and more. I feel the need to rip and tear at flesh, to not only kill but to destroy. The crazy thing is that I think I enjoy it... The thrill of the chase is all that really maters in this mindset and it doesn't matter what I'm chasing. Unlike normal zombies there is still that ability to plan and hunt somewhere in there..."
`MPD;; “Multiple personality disorder is really the best way to describe what I'm going through right now. You know those old school werewolf movies where the guy blacks out then wakes up covered in blood naked in some place he'd never been before? yeah I'm having those moments almost daily. Usually ending up with a dead something around me and covered in blood. Kinda wish I had my own place if only because I hate sneaking in and out of star bucks to use their bathroom. its almost my zombie and normal personality remain completely separate and until I get hungry my zombie one stays dormant."
the relationships
I'M JUST TRYING TO LOVE YOU ANY KIND OF WAY.
I'M JUST TRYING TO LOVE YOU ANY KIND OF WAY.
FRIENDS; reed;; friends for now reed will be excited to see her until he realizes what happened. he may try and kill her or simply leave her after he realizes what she is. but for the first little bit there will be some serious excitement.
alison;; alison is a radical and an angel. as a power of hers she can sense chemical changes in the air where they are given of by humans or anything else. if she ran into ashlee she would knew she was a zombie because of the lack of chemicals within her body since shes dead but i don't think ali would do anything. shes a radical and her job really isn't to kill zombies but help cure and keep an eye on things. if anything shed offer to get her tested and all that.
LOVERS;not open for pre planning
ENEMIES; derrick;; enemies. derrick is a hunter so if he were to find out that she was a zombie he would try to kill her. xD he takes his job pretty seriously. it would be interesting down the road if/when he finds out that shes a zombie they could like have this crazy fight where they try to kill each other hehe.
FAMILY;not open
OTHERS; brenden;; well bren is a numnuts. i dont know where these two would sit with each other. hes a cop but he wouldnt tell shes a zombie. i could see her being someobody he might just chill with at the bar.
ZOMBIE FOR HIRE! If anyone wants a zombie attack in their thread that will actually challenge your characters hit her up and you can qualify for this other section
the threads
I'M NOT TRYING TO SAY THAT EVERYBODY WANTS TO GO
I'M NOT TRYING TO SAY THAT EVERYBODY WANTS TO GO
title here stated by name here with/for name here and name here. This threads status is thread status here. 'Summery here.'
oo1.coffee....sweet nectar (open) stated by Roarke Hunter with/for Ashlee Muller. This threads status is ongoing. 'Retreating to the starbucks bathroom after another blackout to wash away the blood she was surprised to find another werewolf when she came out. Against all instincts she ordered a coffee and joined him at his table for some small talk that eventually got deeper. She told him her deepest darkest secret and he laughed. After freaking out a little she felt better that she had gotten it off her chest. But at the same time she worries about pushing this handsome young werewolf away.'
oo2.of nightmares and horror shows stated by Ashlee Muller with/for noone. This threads status is closed. 'She met a couple and their older son eariler that day but suddenly the hunger hit her like a crashing wave. Next thing she knew she was shambling down the street towards their home. She was shot in the arm trying to get the door open so she shifted. Killing the father first she was shot through the throat by the son. She killed him next followed by the mother before feasting.'
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